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[pennywhistle]

I'm still awake, watching Comedy Central, cleaning and packing like a fiend. I'm on Yahoo, msg me? I could chat... (pampered_penny is my Yahoo ID)



I HATE MY MANIA. I HATE BEING BIPOLAR. As if being seriously depressed wasn't bad enough, let's top it off with some mania! 3:30am, I've been working ALL day on my room, spackling, sanding, and painting, and my mind refuses to shut up. It's all tensed and my brain says "MUST DO SOMETHING" and I say, "No, it's 3:30, it's sleeping time." And my brain says "NO SLEEPING! THERE'S THINGS TO BE DONE!" And then I must go do them.

It doesn't happen with any regularity and it doesn't seem triggered by anything that I can think of. It's just very very frustrating.

Comments

[shelllynn.livejournal.com]

I am sorry that you cant sleep.. i know alot of people like that.. i am not bipolar.. but i am a depressed person who got there days and nights mnixed up.. i sleep from 2am to noon... i dont feel like doing anything most of the time.. its the winter months. i am on my high all summer... i think i have SAD

[rocknstardust.livejournal.com]

My brain says "CLEAN THE ENTIRE BATHROOM, I DON'T CARE IF IT'S 4:00am, CLEAN CLEAN CLEAN TILL IT'S SPOTLESS!!" and I pretty much listen to it but yet I'm deemed pretty normal. Lots of people do this. I know mania must be horrible, but dear Penny, even without it, you'd have 4:00am urges to clean. It's a womanhood thing :P Good luck!!

[queensheba.livejournal.com]

I second that -

[queensheba.livejournal.com]

I second that - although I'm not sure it's a woman thing so much as a person thing. My sister-in-law says my brother-in-law is susceptible to it too. You can't take me too seriously, because I'm a little compulsive about cleaning, but I *definitely* go on little cleaning "binges" where one thing just BUGS me and I can't rest until it's at least better, no matter what time it is.

[rocknstardust.livejournal.com]

Sometimes I'll clean a polished wood surface and step back to see how it looks and I'll see a fingerprint and try to wipe it off and put 20 more fingerprints on the surface with the wiping...and then I just clean the whole thing over.

Maybe I'm not so sane, huh :P